Well I have been quiet the last week or so because it has been a rough week. I have had more down days than up. but yesterday was OK (Probably because
I didn’t have to leave the house LOL)(also, so far today is OK). I got my butt out of bed mostly on time (I slept in about 10 minutes). I made my tea…a very supernatural Christmas tea!!! You know, it is really difficult each morning trying to decide on which tea to drink … I may have an obsession with the tea… a little…shut up, I said a little! Since discovering Kelly’s Tea Hippie tea,
I usually pick one of those … I mean LOOK at these flavours!! AND they are fricking delicious!!! You may notice that anytime I mention tea, I go a little ca-razy and promote Tea Hippie – I will again say, I do not get paid in any way, shape, or form. I just REALLY Love her tea!! Also she reminds me of my Aunt Janet, whom I adore and her teas are aimed at us freaky ass fangirls! Fangirling over tea! Yeah!! My sister, ‘Cole, would LOVE this tea! (hmmm I may see a birthday present in the future…) Speaking of my baby sister, that little sappy nerd made me cry. I received her Christmas card yesterday and, well with everything I have been going through … I needed that.
I love and appreciate her so very much, I am lucky and thankful that I have her as my sister. Yeah, yeah … I am getting sappy in my old age, but I don’t care. This is the person I have become … from a cold hearted emotionless bitch to a sappy, emotional basket-case … weeeee!!
I love her so very much, She is beautiful, smart, kind, loving, funny, silly, fangirly, fashionable, talented, and uber nerdy (you may laugh at this, but in our family being nerdy is way fucking cool and nothing to be ashamed of… Nerdy and proud)!! She has 3 sisters (Yes I know I have 4 and she has three, here is the thing mom and dad had 3 kids, they separated and then each had 1 more with their next partners, she is the wondrous product of my (our) dad and her wonderful mom .. and don’t you dare call her my “half-sister”, I hate that! I don’t half love her, I don’t give her half of a gift, she is not half of a person. She is my sister. My baby sister. Fully Completely. <<< Yes I did … and I think I will do it more often … or will I? Ya Never Can Tell …Ha! ) and she is all of our favourite sister! We all know it, we are not offended by it. She is perfect … and waaaay less fucked up than the rest of us and she will always be my favourite brat … No she is not a brat and never was, that is just one of my words. I miss her and am trying to fight through my the anxiety and depression, which distanced me from everyone, and reach out and connect more, with not only her but other sisters as well … it is hard, but I am working on it because I love them and miss them. Moving on…
I turned on the fire place (which actually went on first try!! Woot! If I miss it the first try, the pilot light won’t work and I have to light it manually by using a long match and trying to get it in just the right spot ..I am guessing with the same difficulty a man has getting his girl to orgasm … BAHAHAHA!!), and gathered up all my wrapping tools while I waited for my tea to steep. I inhaled that spicy aroma of my delectable tea, savoured the first sip and sat my ass on the freshly steamed carpet (well … dry..I had steamed it 2 days before). Oops! I forgot! I need some background noise! So I struggled up and threw on “The Walking Dead”… Yep, I skipped the Christmas features and opted for some good old fashioned guts and gore…And I met Negan … WTAF (What The Actual Fuck)!!! How dare they try to make me hate Denny!! How dare they try to make me hate John!!! I am so emotionally distraught!! I am traumatized forever!! I want to love him so badly … but I can’t!! I see him come on the screen and I smile and get all warm and fuzzy inside and then BAM! He is a fucking psychopathic dickhead who just needs to die!! Leave them alone Negan!! Just fucking leave them alone!! OMG!! He just killed them!! I hate him, I hate him!!! And yes, I cried and I screamed at him … the neighbours may think there was some serious shit going on in here… OK, I need to get past this. I was up and down…
physically from sitting on the floor and mentally from that goddamn Negan, but I am talking physically here. I would wrap for a bit, sitting all cramped on the floor, losing the tape, scissors, gift tags and pen repeatedly, continuously until my back and knees couldn’t take any more then I would stand up, stretch them out, do a little cleaning, make another scrumptious tea, and back to wrapping to start the cycle all over again. I spent the entire day wrapping presents … ok … I spent about 15% of the day wrapping presents, 15% cleaning and 60% looking for that goddamned tape!!! Seriously though, how the hell does the tape always seem to disappear? I swear there are little evil elves that move the tape every time you put it down just to fuck with your head and make you have to move your finger from that perfectly wrapped gift, ruining the whole thing! Fucking Krampus elves! Well the great news is I am about 95% done. Yep that’s right, suckers, I am done shopping AND pretty much done wrapping! BooYah!!! Talk about peace of mind. Whew.
And now that I have wasted over half a day telling you my silly story, I am outta here for a few days. I made a promise to my daughter that I need to keep and this house needs to be spotless by Saturday … and there is A LOT to do … I need a maid… and a chef … and a chauffeur …and, what the hell add a butler into the mix …
Please remember that Christmas is a time for Love, Joy and Family. Don’t break the bank just to please others. Don’t stress about it. If they love you, your time and love is all they need. Take a deep breath and know that no matter what, you are loved.
Someone loves you and someone is here for you, whether you realize it or not. Your story is not over; continue life. Canadian Crisis Line 1-833-456-4566. You are never alone. Children’s help phone 1-800-668-6868. I love you.
Family. Grateful. Love.


the world Tea Hippie
ALL of these mugs!!! I want them all!! Princess Bride Mug!!! Why don’t I have one yet? WTF! A Labyrinth mug, A Dark Crystal mug and a Gremlins mug!!! Eeeek!! But Alas, I behaved …mostly … I may have bought myself 3 things (I am counting the 4 teas as 1). Walking up and down the isles I made a mental note of the possible gift ideas for various friends, family and secret Santa groups. On my way through the aisles I came across the Starfleet booth, they had a bunch of cool nerdy ass Star Trek stuff, but one thing caught my attention and I couldn’t put it down … it had a squeaker and a shaker in it. It fucking Squeaked AND squealed! Unfortunately, they had this guy fixed, so he won’t be multiplying uncontrollably giving me tons of baby Tribbles!!! He is so fuzzy! I loved him to much to pass by,so I screamed (in my head) “take my money” and handed over the $4.00 that allowed me to adopt and bring home this little ball of happiness. I will have to keep a close eye on him though. My friend B has a dog, Brooke, who also loves the squeaky balls of fuzz (Oh My gawd! That is so dirty and I am not changing it! LMFAO). Well Brooke can’t have my Tribble, he is my happy little friend. Giving him one last shake before putting him in the bag
(Kevin found this giddiness over the tribble quite amusing) we headed off to continue making our rounds (We like to do 2 laps – first one to see everything and make notes, the second to make the purchases – yeah … the tribble and tea were bought in round 1 … just saying).
I must have it! Ok. fine, My mind screamed “take my money” at me again! I spent way too much money on a fucking awesome, custom made, one of a kind 11th Doctor inspired Bow tie!! Look at this thing! I am so in love with it, I regret nothing. It’s a hair clip by the way. a pretty pretty hair clip and I can’t fricking wait to wear it!!! Matt Smith would be proud! Bow Ties are cool!! Even if they are Hair clips… Well that was my last purchase.
I ran into Jester and Mollymauk cosplayers!!! They look amazing don’t they!!! There is not much more satisfying than meeting fellow critters. The critter community is the most kind, giving, caring and supportive community I have ever seen. I love us critters! After leaving, with a heavy heart, we headed to the theatre to watch Bohemian Rhapsody. OMG! Despite some of the timeline errors and fallacies it was a damn incredible movie. I am not going to go into a big review of it, It was just marvelous. A movie about my “first” favourite band with a cast that portrayed them flawlessly. It gave me goosebumps… both times I watched it. hehe.