Acrigon’s Story

I am a mommy. And as said by most moms, I love my daughter more than life itself.

I have Anxiety disorder, Depression, PTSD and suspected Fibromyalgia, IBS. I suffer daily from pains, sadness, horrifying flashbacks, knots in my tummy, and a head full of “stuffs”. Stress is a constant and sleep is a rarity.

I am trying to become a more positive person in an effort to fight this depression. So Fuck Negativity. Positivity. Happiness. Gratefulness. Love. Kindness. Thankfulness. Spirituality. Mindfulness. Relaxation. Strength. Peace. Goals.

I am anti-social. 🚷 I really really really really really really really really really really really really dislike being around people. Sure I have a select group of people I would call friends, but I find the majority of people give me panic attacks. I never used to be like this, I used to be very social … enter Anxiety

No-One TRULY knows me. I act tougher than I really am. I hide the fact that inside I am filled with an upheaval of emotional trauma. The thing is, the person I was is nowhere near the person I am. Sometimes…I don’t even know myself. Please don’t pretend to know me … you don’t. You know what I allow you to know.

I used to find humour in just about everything. No really, the more inappropriate, the more I would laugh. Now … Just laughing is a rarity.

3 of my favourite animals rhyme. Cat, Rat, Bat . I Also L♥VE Bunnies, Owls and Hippos!!! But I love no animal more than my dog

I am Proud to be Canadian 🇨🇦 but not proud of Canada. (well what I mean is I am not proud of the Canada our government(s) is(are) “destroying”. I am not proud of the Canadians that don’t act like Canadians.

I met the love of my life 💏 in a place I least expected when I wasn’t even looking.

I hate pickles 🤮 Also Lemons. Gag!

My Family. Ulgh. Dysfunctional to say the least. My parents separated when I was but 3 or 4 years old. My 4 sister and I have all “drifted” apart (due mostly in part to some mental illnesses). I am trying to reconnect with some of them.

I adopted my first dog in 2018 and she quickly became the love of my life.

I pronounce it aunt … rhymes with taunt, flaunt, Jaunt, haunt, Vermont… because that is how it is spelled, if it was to be pronounced like the bug it would be spelled ant 🐜.

I only used to be a chatty person. 🙊 I now dislike to talk but I could write it all out in a novel… a really big novel … I am going to work on improving my communication though… 💬

I more often than not have multiple opinions on one topic. Some of these opinions could even be considered opposites … Sometimes I see things from more then one perspective. Other times I am dead set/hardheaded with an opinion that cannot be changed or persuaded.

Some of My favs: Movie 🎬 – The Princess Bride . Book📖– To Kill a Mocking Bird. TV 📺 – oh crud … so many, choose just one? ummm…Supernatural. Stream 💻 – Critical Role. Person – Other than my daughter (or Family)…. Felicia Day! Colour – Deep Reds (and earthy greens). Food – Chicken Wings. Music 🎶 – Rock/Classic Rock. (BON JOVI !! and Queen are my #1’s, Our Lady Peace, The Tragically Hip and Grand Theft Bus are close seconds)

I can be stubborn. When I have my mind set. It is set. There is no change mind button.

I no longer hate anyone. Hate is a powerful tool into the negativity darkness. I have an EXTREME dislike for 1 person and very much dislike for 2 others… I am working on it…

I am very independent. My illnesses are testing just how much…

I have a delusional obsession with J♥n B♥n J♥vi 💗🤤💗.

I cry.😢😭 A lot. happy, sad, angry, scared? I cry. As I age, my emotions are going haywire. I cry.

I like to help. I am always the helper. I have been down and out and have had help. Now I pay it forward…and you probably don’t know about it because …

People who brag about their “good deeds” annoy me.

I swear. A Lot. I could make a sailor blush with some of the language 🤬 that comes out of my mouth.

I fucking Love Christmas!! 🎁⛄️🎄🎅🤶I love the spirit and pleasant feelings. I no longer worry about the commercialization of it. Fuck the greedy. I give and want love. 💝💝💝

Lately I have taken little to no interest in anything… but before this depression my favorite pastimes included playing D&D 🧙‍♂️, watching the cast of Critical Role play D&D, Re-watching my fav movies and TV Shows also Reading 📚 (to name but a few). And my worst pastime … spending money when my emotions are escalated… on a new outfit, a present for Kal, or new dice.. oooh I need new Dice! 💵💰💳📦💸📔💸👠💸👢💸👕💸🎞💸

I used to drink 4-5 coffee a day ☕️. I switched from Coffee to Matcha latte 🍵to tea after some tummy problems put me on a bland diet for 6 months. I still have a small coffee on random and tiresome days … maybe once every couple months or so. But TEA!!!

I Obsess over some things. I NEED to have something to distract my wandering thoughts in an effort to keep me (somewhat) sane …So I Obsess. (Like Tea … and Shoes … and D&D … and books … and dice … and Funko Pops … )

Bonus: I am me. That is all.